8 months

Elli lived to see 8 months old this Sunday, no thanks to her brothers! For some reason this has been on my mind for a few days. Eight months already and it seems like she was just born. I can't help but think that I have taken advantage of the time that I have with my kids while they are so young. It is easy for me to forget how precious they really are to me amid the screaming, crying, diapers, cleaning and whatever else motherhood throws at me.

To my sons: What a miracle you truly are! There was a time when you nearly fit in the palm of my hand, your tiny fingers wrapped around mine and i promised i would keep you safe. I watched you as you laid there struggling to breath, fighting for a chance to live, i promised i would fight just as hard for the rest of your life.

By no small miracle you made in home, i promised I would care for you, help you learn and help you grow so one day you could be strong like your Daddy.

I promise to keep those promises, I will love you, care for you, keep you safe. I will help you lean and grow!

To my little Elli: What a blessing you have been our lives! There is something about you that calms me and gives me peace. Your so content with life, some thing I've yet to learn! There are some blessings that our Heavenly Father gives us and we know they came from him, you truly are a blessing! I hope I can be the mother you deserve, but please be patient, I'm still learning, and there's alot of learning left for me to do. We are so grateful you are with us!

There are several times through out the day I feel like I don't quite deserve to be a mother. These children deserve some one much better than me, someone much more patient than I, Someone more fun, more clean, more creative but I am theirs and they are mine. I know that I am not alone in this venture, I have a father in heaven that knows my weaknesses and has promised to make them strengths if I am willing to work for it. He also know that I have strengths and has sent me these beautiful spirits for that reason. Today may be a good day and tomorrow might be bad but I have the blessing of prayer and the power gift of the Holy Ghost to help me know that I am doing OK and tomorrow is another day to try a little harder and be a little better.